The Starry Skies

  The voices speak through you You never say a word The world collapses around And you care not Who you really are Is a search that never stopped What you represent is a knowledge Forbidden to us We are the average people The walkers of this land The blight upon the world Humanity A curse That will never be broken in your mind Stuck under the ocean Wondering what brought you there The information and emotions Elude your hands Your fingertips barely not touching You wish you could Hold them In reality you run from your past You're afraid of your future You refuse to acknowledge the fact That you are an artist You tell the lies And through them the truths You will never die Despite what you wish to do You are but an old soul And also in your youth So make the best out of it all Of your talents, make use You might hurt You might bruise But a risk is worth taking Dive deep into your soul Find yourself under the ocean Equip yourself for such a journey Follow through with devotion In you...

  I stare the memories I've created The childhood which I've had I cornered myself into a screen And I barely remember the facts All I know is I remember nothing more Than short term memories of games and moments Which barely left an impression on me And I'm still doing so today And I think I'll keep doing so till I fall I have no real moments in my past Barely any to speak of I have no memories to think back to fondly All I did was escape my world Reality was never something I faced And whenever I had to, I'd always retreat And when the going got the toughest And I mean the very toughest I'd wish to end myself or flee So I am sorry, my dearest me I apologize for wronging you so I wish I made more memories with friends I wish I was more present in the past I wish I made more memories with family The people closest to myself, although I took their existence for granted I never really thought of them as more I wonder what lies beyond the next corner What coin toss...

  In another world I'd live and die Without ever being Enchanted by skies By the stars that fill them By the comets that fly By the wishes that have never survived In another world I'd be alive I'd feel like I am on this earth I'd feel like I am truly myself I'd feel the need To fill the needs That I feel I'd do everything To please myself I'd choose constantly To be happy To be happy Except this isn't a world that I Live in forever I am instead a person buried so deep Within my sorrow Within my past Within my present Within my future I am not really present Except I am And I am not The things I miss Do truly rot Breakfast with my cousins Pizza during the night An evening to reminisce On the bygone times The things I'm loving Now aren't real They're make-believe In a world I filled With my own creations My own dreams My vivid imaginations That speak and breathe I try to include my own self Somewhere in that fantasy But even I am not perfect h...

  I'm no longer a man Who's worth fighting with I'm not even a man So don't fight for me I'm not even worth your time To even fight me For I've already given in Given up Defeated from within Stuck I'm always quiet I barely ever talk Yet I'm always defiant With every step when I walk I speak the truth in lies In every word when I talk Something within me lives and dies With every day that I wake Every mistake that I make Every error in my judgment And every err in my abundant Stories which are fake I tell you lies upon lies And in the middle I speak truth I tell you of wars I've survived In my days of youth See my dear I'm an old soul Old enough that I was never whole I'm what people tend to call A quiet walking shadow A masquerade A gun without any ammo A sword with no blade Darling there's no fight left in me There's nothing left to take There's no real victory In fighting off my snakes My inner demons They will haunt you too And...

Staring in the dark The eyes see nothing Closed or open, no difference The visions of the mind are stunning The past is below The future looms far above In this moment of clarity The knowledge we have is enough The awe that's inspired By oh so many things The knowledge that transpired Through the experiences Is far from the truth Yet the closest thing to it, too It was never a lie It was never gospel either It was never intended to survive Like a baby boy in ancient times Who caught a fever And yet braved through it And watched through the darkness The light ensue from within The power that that child now holds Is infinite The strength that that child now wields Is magnificent For he is no child anymore For everyone stands in awe When he braves forwards And keeps moving on From one problem to another From one failure to the next He seems to never be bothered By life or by death His hide is unbroken His power unfettered His story remains unspoken Yet it pours out letter by letter Th...

  Walking together Under the sunlight Floating like feathers Until the day we die For death is looming presence Even though we never met eyes In my future, there it lays Waiting to meet each other, biding our time Awaiting us with open arms it stays Watching us walk together Under the gleaming sun rays And we remain in motion Wanting to learn more Floating in an ocean In the middle of the world And we can do everything As long as we choose so Loudly, we take the walk of joy Together, hopeful and jolly We move We move and walk and walk Towards death with open arms Choosing our own fates In the current times, we try To push the sorrows away Be happy and enjoy our lives Discovering new passions Carefully we step, and arrive For the world shall remember us so As legends once we become ghosts Walking in joy together Hand in hand interlocked Floating in the air like feathers Dandelions from our fields plucked Caring not if we live or die Alive and dead at once, entwined Maintaining a tru...

  I sing to myself That heartless lullaby I think to myself When I'll die I wonder and wonder All through the night About the timing of my death I spend the night crying Trying to reminisce An old feeling I once had Wish I could understand The sublime I never really comprehended My life In the face of the impossible I've struggled and won a war Yet when fighting the mundane I fail to see the doors Trapped inside a windowless room Coloured in white, covered in pillows Being alone does spell my doom Yet it does feel oh so mellow In the darkest times I never really had a light So I fabricated my own In the form of fake starlight Starlight I've barely seen Due to the light pollution in my city And I stare in the silence Witness the absence of my essence I remain and I stand defiant And sing a heartless lullaby for the reminiscence I calm my soul temporarily I colour my walls in black I draw little white dots To simulate what's, in fact A simple alter-ego For a man hung in t...

  I've always failed to see The things that I do To be done by me The things I've been through The things I've achieved The struggles I had to deal with I always feel like I'm not myself Not that person who stared at the corpse of his mother Not myself Not that person who was abandoned and left so many times Not myself Not the person who wrote "I apologize" I honestly went back and read that one so many times And I realized I can't tell what kind of mindstate I was in I have no idea how I wrote that piece Or any of the other ones here as well The poetry that spews out of my mind Feels like it came from someone who isn't me Not myself Not the man who wakes up every single day And decides that he wouldn't kill himself Not myself I feel like an imposter within my own skin Like I view my life from third person Like I do not even exist Not myself Not the child who managed to score straight As Only myself When I'm the adult who has already failed And...

My dear father I would be lying if I said that I don't cry sometimes I wish I wasn't as bad As I am this time I love you and I cherish you Even though I never knew you You were at times the light That I needed to get through All the tunnels that I've walked All the roads that I've known You've been a living guide to me More that you could know You passed before I was even conscious And in my conscience I somehow always knew That you're as much a part of me As I was of you People who knew you well tell me we're so alike That I'm walking proof that you're still alive You are truly missed even when I never could Tell what you were really like Though I get told to look in a mirror And that thought leaves me terrified Because dad if you were like me That means you were broken, too And broken you weren't from what I know About you So that wouldn't make sense at least to me Cause dad all I know about you is that you were free Free willed and free sp...

  At nights I lie awake Wondering to myself Pondering every mistake Wishing I had help But then I'm constantly reminded Of all the mistakes you've made As I am often blinded By the lies looking me in the face Oh how you could dare Tell them to me straight Staring right back at you Telling me that you're alone When you're so surrounded by people Surrogating them all By copies of yourself Your identity is buried deep Within the many faces that you wear To cover that which is meek Your soul is so fragile Oh I could just break it How you could dare lie The way that you did So you try to keep going Follow a certain direction That you believe is ongoing And can't believe in dereliction Of one's own personality And how you could dare cross that line That we drew together How you could dare break the promises We gave each other How you could dare cry out loud When I was right there How you could dare wage a war completely All out on yourself You and I are one and the sa...

  My beloved where have you gone I've been searching for you for so long In our previous life we took a vow That we would end up together My beloved I wonder sometimes If you've never died Or if you've just forgotten our promise My beloved I wonder sometimes If you've never loved me back Or if you've just never been honest I wish I found you by now I wish you were with me The nights would go on easy If you were here The dark would never have appeared If you were here My beloved you are my greatest example Of how great a person could be With you here I would know how to breathe I would rise up from under the debris My beloved I really wish That you knew how I feel Losing you was my greatest fear Getting over you never occurred And I wish you were near My fears are now tenfold Never finding you is my greatest fear now You walking away is even worse I sometimes hope you were real Not a figment of my imagination Cause if you weren't I'd have to live with the fas...

 Every night I wonder What I've done to be alone All day I spend my time following Observations of my own And I don't understand why I spend all my time in disguise I try and try to learn the reason Behind the treason I've committed to my life I follow the observations They lead me to learn my limitations The anguish and the sorrow The sadness and the horror The darkness lying within The need to suppress it all The yearning for an end That's happy A hope that in the end I'll be happy And not alone I walk in the shadow Cast by myself The sun gazing at the back of my head I gaze back at it In the depths of night As to avoid hurting my eyes I ask the sun, and its sisters If they knew The reason behind my torment I doubt they ever understood But speaking to the skies Helped calm me Even if they've never called me back They'll one day call me back And I'll be there Surrounded by friends I've made Years and years ago I won't be alone in that end And th...

  I do respect the machinations That suggest the implications Of what would truly happen when We break our limitations In our conversations, we Lose track of who we are So they begin, the imitations And they take us far Over the years we lose track Of our identities entirely And our imitations become us We have no clue who that is Staring back at us in the mirror Questioning that which we've become Always in a chase, or on the run Mostly both combined Repeated, time and time Again and again the world Collides And we submerge within Our ancient selves Staring at us in the reflection Of the waters, still No motion to be observed But disillusion dawns upon us As we recognize the past Frowning down And reorganize our thoughts It strangely fits That we shall end Where we did begin And after all is said and done All of what she's written We'll see ourselves Suddenly smitten With hatred and loss Learning to become Something completely anew When a man resolves Their inner conflicts...