Beloved

 My beloved where have you gone
I've been searching for you for so long
In our previous life we took a vow
That we would end up together
My beloved I wonder sometimes
If you've never died
Or if you've just forgotten our promise
My beloved I wonder sometimes
If you've never loved me back
Or if you've just never been honest
I wish I found you by now
I wish you were with me
The nights would go on easy
If you were here
The dark would never have appeared
If you were here
My beloved you are my greatest example
Of how great a person could be
With you here
I would know how to breathe
I would rise up from under the debris
My beloved I really wish
That you knew how I feel
Losing you was my greatest fear
Getting over you never occurred
And I wish you were near
My fears are now tenfold
Never finding you is my greatest fear now
You walking away is even worse
I sometimes hope you were real
Not a figment of my imagination
Cause if you weren't
I'd have to live with the fascination
That you might some day leave me
The problem is you were never
In this life of ours
Incarnation of desertion
I fear all my fantasies have come together
To form a monstrosity
The likes of which were never seen
You light up my dark nights
You are the stars in my skies
I hope you knew how I felt
Towards you
I wish you were a true figure
I wish my imagination was fickle
I wish you'd leave my dreams
And leave me alone forever
But only if I could forget
What you have always meant to me
But only if I could forgive
The things that
You've done to me