The Starry Skies

  Thinking back on my days Caused me to find myself In a strange place My peace of mind is gone It's been gone for years I've been on the run for long Sprinting away from my fears And if they hadn't manifested Into what I am now Maybe I'd have felt better But I don't know how See I'm afraid I'm afraid of what I'd become I'm afraid I'm afraid of everything that's to come I'm afraid I'm afraid of the beliefs that I'm haunted by I'm afraid I'm afraid of my sporadic thoughts I'm afraid I'm afraid that I'll get by I'm afraid I'm afraid that for me that's all she wrote I'm afraid to wake up one day and find That I'm lost And then again I am nowhere to find Guess my direction is what I've lost And over the course of the years past I've found multiple versions of me Dwindling dangling from stories passed Manifesting into my greatest fears I'm afraid to become myself again I'm afraid ...

  In my past days I was alone and hurt In my old ways I was alone and content I did not realize what That did to me I thought I was alone And free I spread my wings to fly But my shackles held me tight I wished I would have died Before I risked the nights I was too afraid to go on Move forwards with my life But then I met a ghost One which looked a whole lot like myself One which I used to know A long time ago We danced a dance for so damn long That I had forgotten she was but a ghost Floating there quietly I did not imagine what it was That brought her besides me But she was there keeping me Company And trying to be A gentle reminder that Whatever had happened in my past Is mine alone To atone for and forgive For no one but me can help me She serves as a reminder That I'm the one shackling me Setting me free would be my job And thanks to her I know that now She and I are so alike I wish I knew how She materialized from thin air My imagination created her And her image in my mind D...

  And for the first time in years I felt alive But at what cost? Trust me, my friend I barely survived And the irony on me is not lost I only survived because The fire inside burned brighter Than the fire outside ever could I am standing still At the top of a mountain Above it all Climbed all the way up here Alone The fire inside burned bright For far too long It was dimming with every night Until it was extinguished whole I was dying slowly I was losing my grip And when I started to brush with death I thought that was it I thought I was done for I thought my time has come I stared in a mirror for far too long Wondering what I have become Numbing my pain once at a time with every song Breathing, aching with every exhale A weakling, barely alive and in pain And then I discovered it A whole new universe Where I could be the master Of my own fate Nothing mattered none I felt nothing at all for too long And all of a sudden The fire inside sparked up again I was bleeding since forever N...

  Walking in a shadow Living unborn Undying the feel That I don't belong Anywhere With anyone I hold me alone I hold on... Flying on my own Floating in the skies The feeling comes and goes That was lie... I live with that feeling I call it my home  I am weakened By it all I feel Darkened Blighted by the sun Alive and dead at once Trying to hug myself Make sure I do not cry And even if I do I'll know why As far as the eye can see As hard as a hug can be My arms wrap around me And imprison me I try so hard to fight me And set me free from me From the way that I feel Fight my way out of it Unbind my own chains Break through my own fears My courage, I have found it Amongst all of what I've claimed All through the years And oh my dear self I feel you So deep within me I thought we lost one another years ago I thought I'd have to survive on my own But then I found you I hugged you And I became myself again I embraced you With all your flaws and all your pains Traumas and hatr...

  Tonight We'll fly far away A flight That'll take us every place Lock your eyes With mine My dear we'll get right there Wherever we please Wherever we go I am pleased For I do know We will be together We will be forever Life will never takes us from One another Lock your hands my dear In mine And we shall be free Tonight When we go to That place where we feel safe We'll be smiling all the while Laying down on a field of grass Stargazing for a long time Hours they may be, but an eternity they last My dear, life by your side Makes me feel like Your soul is entwined With mine And when I am down Don't you worry about me For I'll be fine I'll be alright Because you're with me I can see into your heart Through your beautiful eyes An ocean of feelings An avalanche of emotions When we sway forever In that motion right there We are not just alive We are immortalized When you lock your heart With mine

  I look into the mirror and wonder Who is it that I see Who's this person in front of me I take a long time to ponder Who is that person that I constantly meet Is he good, is he bad Does he need to be Redeemed I ask myself why does he shy away Why does he hide from the world He has all these amazing qualities He's kind, hopeful, and sees the best in people Wish he could feel absolved Instead of counting the casualties Of his past, and think he's evil Let him be Redeemed Let his trauma be resolved Instead of him being contained, absorbed Within his own regret and pain His sadness and anger Things that he cannot even name Inside his mind he wanders From place to place Trying to find a meaning To his past experience His past self constantly intervening Asking him if he is serious Reminding him how hurt he got The last time he opened up Never letting him try to be Redeemed He stares out the window And into me Trying to yell out loud And ask me To keep him abound And never leav...