The fire inside

 And for the first time in years
I felt alive
But at what cost?
Trust me, my friend
I barely survived
And the irony on me is not lost
I only survived because
The fire inside burned brighter
Than the fire outside ever could
I am standing still
At the top of a mountain
Above it all
Climbed all the way up here
Alone
The fire inside burned bright
For far too long
It was dimming with every night
Until it was extinguished whole
I was dying slowly
I was losing my grip
And when I started to brush with death
I thought that was it
I thought I was done for
I thought my time has come
I stared in a mirror for far too long
Wondering what I have become
Numbing my pain once at a time with every song
Breathing, aching with every exhale
A weakling, barely alive and in pain
And then I discovered it
A whole new universe
Where I could be the master
Of my own fate
Nothing mattered none
I felt nothing at all for too long
And all of a sudden
The fire inside sparked up again
I was bleeding since forever
Now I cauterized the wounds with the flames
I yelled out loud
I screamed in the air
I am alive!
Even when life is not fair!
I'm at the peak of this mountaintop now
Wondering what I'll ever do
The fire inside conflicts with the person
That was known to you
But I live again
And I'll walk once more
Stagnation and suffering
Are no more
I am reborn
Reincarnated whole
No longer wondering
When I would fall
Forever pondering
What it was all for
Doesn't matter now
For I am here
The fire inside
Breathed life in me

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