Feel

 Walking in a shadow
Living unborn
Undying the feel
That I don't belong
Anywhere
With anyone
I hold me alone
I hold on...
Flying on my own
Floating in the skies
The feeling comes and goes
That was lie...
I live with that feeling
I call it my home
 I am weakened
By it all
I feel
Darkened
Blighted by the sun
Alive and dead at once
Trying to hug myself
Make sure I do not cry
And even if I do
I'll know why
As far as the eye can see
As hard as a hug can be
My arms wrap around me
And imprison me
I try so hard to fight me
And set me free from me
From the way that
I feel
Fight my way out of it
Unbind my own chains
Break through my own fears
My courage, I have found it
Amongst all of what I've claimed
All through the years
And oh my dear self
I feel you
So deep within me
I thought we lost one another years ago
I thought I'd have to survive on my own
But then I found you
I hugged you
And I became myself again
I embraced you
With all your flaws and all your pains
Traumas and hatred
Weakness and loss
Your fear of commitment
Cause you're frightened of it all across
You're hurt deeply
Abandonment is your horror
Terror seeps through you
When you find yourself
Close to holding someone true
When you start to
Feel
That you're getting close
You push everyone away
In fear of loss
I know and I understand
And I get exactly why
I wish this wasn't the case
Ever since our mother died
But here we are today
Trying to survive
Stronger than ever
Maybe that is another lie
But I'll believe it
And I hope, so will you
For as long as we believe that
We will break through
You are mine
And I am yours
We are the same
We'll find the cure
To the thing that ails
Our deeply hurt soul
And I'll be there besides you
Every step of the way
You and I forever will
Feel the same
And be the same