Redeemed

 I look into the mirror and wonder
Who is it that I see
Who's this person in front of me
I take a long time to ponder
Who is that person that I constantly meet
Is he good, is he bad
Does he need to be
Redeemed
I ask myself why does he shy away
Why does he hide from the world
He has all these amazing qualities
He's kind, hopeful, and sees the best in people
Wish he could feel absolved
Instead of counting the casualties
Of his past, and think he's evil
Let him be
Redeemed
Let his trauma be resolved
Instead of him being contained, absorbed
Within his own regret and pain
His sadness and anger
Things that he cannot even name
Inside his mind he wanders
From place to place
Trying to find a meaning
To his past experience
His past self constantly intervening
Asking him if he is serious
Reminding him how hurt he got
The last time he opened up
Never letting him try to be
Redeemed
He stares out the window
And into me
Trying to yell out loud
And ask me
To keep him abound
And never leave
See he has abandonment issues
He gets hurt when people go
He's insecure about himself
He blames himself for them all
His parents' death, his friends' leaving
For him these are all overwhelming feelings
In the night you can catch him screaming
Out his entire lungs but without a sound
To his past he's bound
Sadly letting his mistakes
Dictate
The future of his new uptakes
Alternate
Between a mode of pure energy
And a lack of it all
Staring down at me he begs to be
Redeemed
And leave it all behind him
Walk away
Took him too long...