The Starry Skies

I'm not you Not at all I'm different from All that which was The fever dreams you once had I've accomplished Some at least The hopes for the future that you had in our past I've abolished Some at least Oh, the naïveté That could lead a man to believe As you once did That could clog a man's sight to perceive The things that went wrong I don't hate you, don't get me wrong I just believe I am better And yet Despite having evolved to grow Your shadow grows with me You were far more likable for some reason You made friends easily Those who knew you cared for you There was a beauty to your wounded wings Now I can fly And with that comes pride Is it unfair for me to feel proud of myself? I've crossed many roads Rivers within boats Sometimes I was a passenger Often I was the one with the oar So I wonder, my dear boy Why is it that they liked you more I don't begrudge you your companionship In fact I wish I was more like you in that regard But all I can see t...

Fever dreams & hard truths Reality and escapism Survivor's guilt in my youth Duality and wild schisms There's a limit to which I can handle things Or at least there used to be before Nowadays my other reality is so strong In the back of my mind it always lives on I'm always daydreaming I always have home fever Even when I'm there I have no real home My home is on the trails I chased after my own perceived truth for many years I couldn't face what reality had for me I couldn't look upon myself in the mirror and accept what I see I was a poor wretch A self-loathing man of inaction I try and try to switch it off I succeeded. For years, I produced barely any reactions My senses were so attuned to non-existence Reality itself wasn't real I perceived my life from the third person There's barely much I could feel I stare upon this past image A poor visage I shake my head in disappointment Not in him, but in his weakness I wish I could take his hand, you kno...

Wrathful river of cyclones and storms I come before you once more I thank you for awaiting me Before beginning your deathly roil I bow before your might as always But that means not that I'll recoil I stand strong just like before Ready to face your wrath I know I've earned some of it, that's true And every human has You're not merciless nor are you cruel You're my bitter hand of fate You guide me through your waters kindly But stop me to face which I must face Tonight I face her ghost again I miss her more than words could say I wish I could sleep in my mother's arms But since she's gone, I've been astray No amount of guilt over her death could ever bring her back It's not my fault anyways No amount of grief could change our fates No matter how much I'd pray I just wish, if an afterlife existed That she'd be there, safe I just hope that if my prayers ring true That she sees me from up there I pray she's not punished for my sins I pray sh...

I've built someplace safe for us, my dear I'd kill to feel that embrace once I pray to break our chains, that we'll reside here I'll embrace death a thousand times if it were in your arms If not the darkened skies that responded to me with light When I gazed upon them looking for that of which I had none If not the lurking monsters in the depths of the river In which I row my ferry until I'll be undone If not for the smile you've once held before That which stops me dead in my tracks If not for the wasted letters and words that I wrote Again and again, lamenting my future's past Then for what will all my suffering be Than to build us someplace safe, my dear There's a darkness that once grew within But I soon learned it left me I walked out of it with your hand in mine I was beset free The universe for years denied me happiness Or so I thought Today, I know It was all my fault Even the things that were out of my control My reaction was mine and mine alone...