Someplace safe

I've built someplace safe for us, my dear
I'd kill to feel that embrace once
I pray to break our chains, that we'll reside here
I'll embrace death a thousand times if it were in your arms
If not the darkened skies that responded to me with light
When I gazed upon them looking for that of which I had none
If not the lurking monsters in the depths of the river
In which I row my ferry until I'll be undone
If not for the smile you've once held before
That which stops me dead in my tracks
If not for the wasted letters and words that I wrote
Again and again, lamenting my future's past
Then for what will all my suffering be
Than to build us someplace safe, my dear
There's a darkness that once grew within
But I soon learned it left me
I walked out of it with your hand in mine
I was beset free
The universe for years denied me happiness
Or so I thought
Today, I know
It was all my fault
Even the things that were out of my control
My reaction was mine and mine alone
Yes I was a child, but I grew old
I learned that not all is to be conformed for
You've had your fair share of darkness, too
I like to think we pulled each other out
The state of mania in which I found you
You were high in the skies, I was deep within the ground
Two inches away from a six-inch grave
You were freefalling down to yours, too
Both of us had to learn to be really brave
And face the realities that neither of us got to choose
But that's okay
You'll help me climb back again and again
I'll be your parachute when you have to fall
I'll catch your landing when the world collapses
You'll pick me up when I begin to crawl
Hand on heart, I swear before you
I'll never break you willingly
I'm trying my best to build us
Someplace safe, in which we can exist infinitely
Souls within and without
Bodies buried in the ground
Hands held together, heads held high
Eyes fixated on the skies
Please bare with me
Have the patience necessary for us to get there
Day in and day out I worry
Far more than words can let me explain
I know not what my soul commands
I just know it's spent most of its years in pain
I know not what your heart demands
I just know I'll do my best
I'm not the greatest at reading hints
Or perceiving that which you wish me to
I know I have my drawbacks
Like any human being would do, too
I'm yours forever
At least so I believe
I don't wish to make promises that my future self can't keep
So what I can promise you is this
I'm yours forever
Or till the end
Whichever comes first
I can't write you checks that I can't cash in
For that would hurt you far more than the truth
You and I are going to suffer oh, so much
Before we can get to someplace safe and live out our youth