The Starry Skies

  I used to live In the past tense In a tense past And a past so dense I've got many sins But since then I've lived alone Among my kin A knight and a king A peasant as well Pleasantries dictated That I act well Even when I'm not Because it bothers people To see that I'm not And in reality this past year Has torn me apart But it forgot To make me anew I've seen all my fears Become realized All the wars I fought Have made me a fool I lost those closest Became a failure, too A worthless being Among all of you So in the past tense I wished I was referred to In the past tense But with a past so tense I can't imagine What I did intend To do with my life Once I reached this point I always thought That I'd be dead I imagined it would be My time I imagined I'd never have Survived But here I am Here I stand On two feet Alone, hopeless and forlorn Unsure where to go The path forwards is unclear The path backwards is not even there For you can't go back To the p...

  If you ever feel alone Then please be reminded There are a million souls Like yours, like mine Out there in the vast expanse That we call our world Each of them has their own dance Together alone We are one and the same Yet different in every way So take solace in the fact That you're not alone today Or tomorrow Or anytime ever at all You'll never be alone For there are others out there That can relate to your suffering Relate to your pain Relate to things you've never said To a single person To a single soul And I know that it doesn't help to know That there are a million souls Like yours, like mine Wandering the ever-expanding dimension That we call time But trust me, you'll come to learn That kindred souls roaming out there Can bring back peace in the end When you think about it And come to realize That you'll one day meet someone You can see with eye to eye You'll come to learn that out there There are a million souls Like mine, like yours Each of us h...

My Faith, my guardian angel How are you? I haven't seen you in a while Where are you? Having a crises about you missing How do you do? Please let me know your status I miss you You've been so far, it's painful And I have no clue What you're doing all that time Just waiting for my cue I've been sitting here alone guessing All of what you knew And whether you need an atlas To make your way here My Faith, my guardian angel I need you near Your presence alone is enough for me Your knowledge of my fears It's like I'm the future And you're the seer Easily seeing through me Like staring from within a mirror But you're free I wonder where you had gone I wonder why you're no longer my truth My beautiful side, my youth My day and night, my stars My gazing at you from a far The beauty within me, the soul I wonder whether you're anything at all Just a figment of my imagination A linked node Linking my past to my present A way to escape I miss you, my Fai...

  Dear mother I write to you now Because I don't know what else to do Or where else to go The world down here is awful, mother I never imagined it was this bad I never imagined I'd have to fight with everything With myself, my future, my friends, my family I could've never thought you'd be gone so soon You were the light in my life and ever since you passed It's been dimming, slowly But dimming And I feel like it's all gone now I feel like there's nothing left of it I pray for you mother Not often Not as often as I'd like to anyways But I do pray for you I pray that you're in a better place I pray that God doesn't judge you for my mistakes I pray that I get to see you again Sometimes I wish I could go back in time And let you hold me in your arms Wash away the pain Sometimes I fail to remember your face That last part hurts the most I wish you were, mother I wish you were with me now But I can't change the fact that you're not Sometimes I...

  Endlessly I walk From place to place I travel Seeking to find more For me than dirt And gravel I trot from place to place Quiet, without talk Unsure of what I know The feelings that I once killed Unravel I am not alone For I have me In my journey I will guide myself No thanks to anyone who's left Alright, to be honest I do owe them some thanks They've made me this strong They've made me who I am So thanks to you, my dears My long lost friends My family The ones who said they'll be there Till the end Why would you break your promises Why would you lie I understand if you had no control of it I understand the ones who've died     But even then I was left alone on my bed to cry So thanks to you for my strength Thanks to you for my power I am now who I am The old me devoured I had to kill him and move ahead I had to be rebirthed Anew When you walked away and left me It wasn't the end, and then I knew That I will be alone For the rest of my days to come So I decide...

  Oh my darling it's so dreary When you're not near me Would you please be The person closest to my heart And oh my sweetness I used to be fearless But the obsoleteness Of time when we're apart Feels like I am bleeding They are fleeting The times of our meetings Then we are again far Oh I wish I could be With you my dear In the meantime So I keep busy With your pictures And stare at the sky The starlight reminds me Of you besides me The light in my life I wonder what happened What did happen What caused all of that strife If you were to listen to me You would hear me Singing ballads of your name But darling you've left me Oh you left me Now I am all alone again   Oh my darling it's so dreary When you're not near me So I hope it's cool For you to choose To start with me anew Is it too much To be asking For you?

  All I know is that I'm lost All I know is that I walk alone Not that it's really anyone's fault Not really anyone's but my own So here I stand Caught in a standstill stance Confused by what could've been All I know is that I missed my chance Missed what I could've done All the great things ahead All the things that are to come And beyond the veil I am hiding Hiding my true self A child that's surrounded By heaps and hills of filth I keep the inner me pure Or at least that's what I try to do And if the stars hadn't spoken I might have ended my life But then again, the stars started talking And that helped me survive The onslaught that my brain launched On itself Maybe it was because I wasn't very staunch To myself And in the end, all I know Is that I didn't do enough Things I've done People I've wronged It's in the past clause But even then I know That I wear my mistakes Like clothes So if taking them off is what it takes Then I...

I set my sail Fly with the wind It'll take me back To my home Arms wide open Welcoming the end Bracing for impact I'm all alone No I won't fail Fly around as I sing Finally got the knack Going back home Heart is singing, hoping And as a matter of fact Home is where the heart is And my heart is with her She's somewhere up above In heaven or in hell Not knowing still isn't enough I need to get back to her Find my peace The time I spent searching Brought me my defeat So I now know what I must And I will do what I need For I, without her Am nothing at all So I'll go back home To her warm hug I'll go back home To her tender touch Oh what I'd give For a minute with her again She was and still is My best friend Save me she does Time and time again What will transpire I know not But I know that that'll be my end

  I'm reborn everyday Barely do any work everyday Fighting with my thoughts everyday Medicating my soul everyday Regretting anything I said everyday Not sure how much longer I can stay In this state Like a phoenix, I burn myself Hoping to be reborn anew I work a little bit to an end Wishing I had some clue From the power high above I ask for guidance a lot Praying that I learn what to do But in my current position I have no idea where to go I am my only opposition So I don't really know Why am I on a mission To prevent the flow of my own boat I walk and walk and take steps Simultaneously I sabotage myself I worked so hard as a little kid Had to learn how to control my temperament Even went to anger management Now I know how to keep  This energy concealed Within me as I breathe it In every word I speak I try to fulfill my needs But I slowly build up this heat Within me And I try to maintain control Over this burning soul I ache and ache to move forward God is the witness of the...

  I'm no stranger to disasters Living in this world makes you think About the things that happen after When it's said and done with everything As the world collides around me You'd find me able to dance and sing Locked in a motion full of emotion Star struck by my own performance Even if it's terrible I wouldn't give a damn I will just keep on moving myself As far as I can And I will survive this crises Same as I did with the ones before I shall rise above it, never fall And even if I do That's fine No, it really is I don't mind As I dance and dance between the waves The ocean of life refuses to let go So I weave and move outside its grasp As I sing to make it calm It softly starts to soften its clasp And as this all takes place People are around me drowning in that space And I couldn't be bothered at all For they're not my problem As the world collides with itself Everyone screams and calls Out for help in this astrobleme While I'm dancing alone...

  As I sit by the fireplace It crackles quietly and roars As I burn my memories onto it It proceeds with its nightly calls Flame by flame, cinder by cinder Ashes to ashes, my memories render Into the embers, and I see in the flames My mistakes, my happy moments They are on replay It displays my bestowment Of anger and rage All my dues were paid Yet I still owe the biggest debt To me Held prisoner by my own mind Unable to set me free No amount of bribes will let me go Get up and leave Instead I stare at the fireplace Right in front of my eyes And in the reflection of the residue It flashed before and applied Some torment to a closed wound The memory opened it softly But it still hurt through and through And in the charcoaled mirror beyond the flames I saw a burned up portrait of myself It spoke to me beyond the veil Told me to let go of my memories Or nothing will be of any avail And that scared me once, but not anymore For I'm not afraid to wither away Become ashes by the flames As...

  I hear everything you're saying But my dear please, save it Don't waste your breath on me Find a person worth it Someone willing to be free You're as sweet as the autumn The summer's heat is you And when you leave it turns back To the winter blues But my dear please, save it Save all those words For someone worth them Someone less absurd Your soul is beautiful Your heart is cold but pure But my darling we're not suitable I'm not what you're searching for I appreciate all you've done I respect your choices as well I wish I was the man you Thought I could have been But I'm not I'm stuck in the past So darling save it Save it for someone better Break the cycle, not your heart Don't break your back on someone so bitter Move on, I simply can't So leave me living in my former days I love you, darling But please save it For someone who's soul isn't aching To meet one it never could I know what you are I know how well you mean But trust...

  Had I known what The mistakes I've made Would've lead to I'd do them all again If I knew that That which I did Would've made me you I'd do it all again You and I Are one of a kind In the mirror I see you From a different dimension Living your life And cry I will For I have no clue What I really did To become you But I definitely would Do it all again If my heart stopped beating I'd have no regrets I would've done most of what I wanted Before I'd turn dead In the moonlight reflecting From the star in our system A few ghosts would be dancing And I'd be dancing with them They belong in my past In the years that went by In this mirror glass I see a reflection of my life A metaphor of what it'd be like If things did really change But truth be told If I could travel back I'd do it all again For I know that this the best I can be And on that fact I'm sold And it's all in my name To cease what I lack And set myself free A man clad in black ...