All I know

 All I know is that I'm lost
All I know is that I walk alone
Not that it's really anyone's fault
Not really anyone's but my own
So here I stand
Caught in a standstill stance
Confused by what could've been
All I know is that I missed my chance
Missed what I could've done
All the great things ahead
All the things that are to come
And beyond the veil I am hiding
Hiding my true self
A child that's surrounded
By heaps and hills of filth
I keep the inner me pure
Or at least that's what I try to do
And if the stars hadn't spoken
I might have ended my life
But then again, the stars started talking
And that helped me survive
The onslaught that my brain launched
On itself
Maybe it was because I wasn't very staunch
To myself
And in the end, all I know
Is that I didn't do enough
Things I've done
People I've wronged
It's in the past clause
But even then I know
That I wear my mistakes
Like clothes
So if taking them off is what it takes
Then I'll do my best
But I can't promise a thing
My will to live barely exists
But then again all I know is
I'll keep living till I'm dead
Whether that's by my hand or not
It's not something that worries me anymore
I am alone, but I'm content
Even without a thing to live for

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