Window

 Minutes
Tick-tock. Tick-tock
The arms are spinning
Eyes locked on the clock
Time running out
The world is ending
I should be running
But I'm left suspended
In absolute disbelief
Staring at a screen
The white rays
Greeting me
Seconds
Upon seconds
They pile up
All wasted, worthless
My very being incomplete
All my feelings drowned, abandoned
Discreet
I wish I could spread my wings
I wish I could be free
The weight of expectations
Crushing me
Beneath its feet
Walk, I can't
Run, I wish
Barely adequate at my craft
Ill, I fell
Poetry, my only escape
The only window out of this hell
Oh, I just wish that
I could hold the time still
Take time for my emotions to distill
Barely managing to work and study
Barely succeeding at what I do
In an economy declining so hard
I'm no longer even confused
Just frightened and scared
Wishing that I could leave
They say it's the same everywhere
But they lie as easily as they breathe
Or they're stupid, sheep
No matter, it frightens me
I wish I knew how to leave
The system is broken, dysfunctional
Just like my mental health
I've got a girl I've strung up with me
Dragging myself out of this hell
Just for her
I'd gift her the world wrapped up if I could
I'd break mountains apart just to see her smile
Tore the old core apart and grew faster than I should
I will travel every corner, infinite miles
Or I would do all the above if I had the power
The desire is good, but not enough
All my hopes are being killed, devoured
By this corrupt country's rust
"At least I have my friends" I tell myself
We'll help each other overcome and win
A bunch of lies that I keep eating
And feeding on
They might be true, but honestly
I would never know
I barely talk to most of them
And for the ones that I do
They barely know a thing about me
They don't even know about you
Es, I'm sorry but I must take charge now
What goes up one day must fall down
That's the law of gravity
And come crashing, one day I will
We've got nobody but the six of us in this world
At least that's what it feels like
When we're at night
Nobody else to comfort in sight
Just got to trust our caretaker
And take care of her
Listen to our logical sense
And tend to our explosive self
All while shielding the little kids
Making sure that they don't know a thing
They must remain pure
That's the sacrifice that we must make
Drink the poison if it'll mean
That we'll see a smile on their faces
I'm sorry, caretaker, but I wish I could
Be as honest or good-willed as you said I would
I'm sorry, my dearest heart
For hurting you
I'm so so sorry for keeping you locked
Away from the truth
And oh my dearest mind, what have we done?
You've developed into a monster that's so far gone
Oh, my love, you were recently born
Or recently found, I don't even know
My dear child, please avert your eyes
There are just some things that from
You must hide
And oh my light, my only talent
I thank you for letting us let all of this out
Through a small window
We can all see the world
Through my eyes
We'll paint pictures with strings of gold
And one day
All of us will travel on
Well, I'm not actually sure
But at least I hope