Her image

My mother once told me a story
Of pain, blood, and glory
She taught me my worth before she was gone
Left me with anger and fury
And no one who knew me then
Can deny how much I changed between then and now
And still I see her reflection above me
And I feel her presence surround me
Her wisdom lurks down below me
All, together, she's always around me
I beg her day and night to take me to heaven
Carry my weight while I patiently wait
To be again cast back down
I count my blessings
Floating in space, I remain afraid
Landing in water in the deep ocean
Ready to give in, ready to drown
Her image carries me back up and beyond
Her soul flutters around like my stars
I gaze upon it for a second and it's gone
Just like her
I miss her with every passing second
Of every passing minute
They say our people last forever
That's a legend
An unproven myth cause I can barely remember
I can't even remember
I cling teeth and nail to my memory of her
Afraid to forget it
Dismembered are my thoughts and dreams
In a collective together floating with my fears
Existing, persisting
I miss her, as she lifts me
Her memory, that keeps me alive
Her soft cleansing hugs and her beautiful smile
All together I miss her greatly and I wish she was here
At least I wish I could tell if she'd be
Even slightly
Proud of me