Stir your eyes

 Stir your eyes as they stare
Spin your tales, that you've spared
All those who once have dared to cross you
Smile and laugh through the pain
Acknowledge those sitting across you on your way back home, on the train
Learn to love what pains you most
Maybe it'll leave you too
Accept your fears and internalize them
Till you have no clue, who it is that is you
Play a piano tune until you fall in love with your skill
Lose all hope in getting better at it
Drop it somewhere along the way just like everything else
And pick up yet another habit and slack it
Never reach your potential, nor become what you were meant to be
Remain afraid to take a step, and rely on those who "set you free"
Never take charge, never push past the first obstacle to come your way
Learn to live in agony, and always be afraid
That is how you become a lesser being, a cloud of fog
Full of uncertainty and rage
Just another piece of the machine, another cog
Utterly refusing to ever be brave
Or to ever take a risk and brave the storm
Remain in the safe haven of the societal norm
Thrash away from gravity, till it pulls against you
Sit still and watch the disparity between your mind and you
Climb a mountain, but trip at the first step
Then give up anyways and run away
Back to your little guy
Sublime is what you believe what you write to be
But it really is not
Your experiences are null and void
Your knowledge is not of concern
Your way with sentences and your word choice
Leaves a gaping hole full of claims
Claims of knowledge and grandeur
Claims of a world full of spikes
Claim that you can never fly yonder
Claim that you know what's wrong and what's right
Down and under the universe you live alone, and you cry in your pain
Damn, the victim role fits you like a glove
"All my effort is always in vain"
Yet you never tried to rise above
Tried a single time and your best wasn't enough
Cry in the corner like you do
You'll never find love
Love for yourself and who you are
And oh my dearest me, I almost forgot
How little I like to be amongst people or in a group
I already romanticized my melancholic solitude
There isn't much you could do to change that
You could try and try your best but it is in fact
The silence and the darkness where I find my peace
The quiet calmness is where I'm set free
Set free to be myself
Set free to free my fears
My greatest fear is for me to turn out to be
The man I think I am
My biggest nightmare is for my struggles to turn out to be
In vain when all has passed
In the darkness and in the silence I roam and spread my arms and wings and fly
In the darkest hours I choose to live and die
And be reborn
Again and again and again
Hopeless and forlorn
Loneliest soul on earth
Accompanied by itself
Bothering not to look for an outer solution
Hating everybody else
Utterly and powerfully
Pushing everyone out
Choosing to find it on its own
The way out
I am but a man and a soul entwined
Within a shell of bone and flesh
A soul and a man that always fight
To figure out what is best
Follow my passion and die young
Build a career and live till eighty
What is right and what is wrong
I can't seem to figure it out lately
Take drugs and lose control
Or be the good little boy your mum has raised
Close your eyes and envision it all
In your fantasy worlds where you escape
The darkness that surrounds you
The world that collapse inwards too
Stir your eyes and still your heart
Your world won't collapse tonight
For this is just like every night
In its end, you'll be alright
Maybe you will, maybe you won't
But its a lie that we both choose to believe
Maybe it'll come true if we believe hard enough
Maybe we will overcome our fears