Pride

I feel heartache in the night
Nothing for me to take pride in
I fear my heart burning tonight
A world conjured around me, it stings
Where can I go
When will I find the way to
Let go
Begin again one day
Over and over again
Have been dancing the same dance
From beginning to end
My arms in the air
Begging for respite
My legs, no my knees
Touching earth
Where can I go
To find a place to hold dear
When will I be proud
Of me
I survived
And that's enough they say
I've been through a lot of warfare
For war's sake
And nothing else
Not my fault or my mistake
Things just happened that way
I couldn't help but be afraid
I'm tired of not being proud
I'm tired of questioning it
I'm tired of being this little thing
A spec of light in someone's life
A small achievement here and there
But in the grand scheme of things
All I see is despair
Begin again, and again
Learn to be free again, my friend
The things that hurt you will end
The time will move ahead
The things that bother you
Are all in your head
But why then, if you know this
Can't you be free
Why then, if you knew this
Are you not proud of me
Let go
Let go my dear
Become one and the same
The tip of your spear
Conquer all that scares you
Embody yourself with your fears
You and I are one and the same
Always together, near