Meaningless

 I hate leaving things unended
When my garden goes untended
I tend to clean the grass
When my mind's backyard is unkempt
I tend to break some glass
And wake and smell the coffee
But then again
What if all that I've done
Is meaningless
You said you wanted to be my best friend
Well go ahead
You said you wanted to help me
Be my guest
But do tell me where you were
When my pain didn't end
Do tell me where you were
Again and again and again
I missed you presence then
And now you need me to be there
But I, well
I needed you to be by my side for oh so long
You've made mistakes
Those you'll have to live with
I have been working my ass off, again
But why do you want it to all be
Meaningless
Tell me, my "best friend"
To what end
Do you want to reach
And what will you reap
When I stand again
And ask you day in
And day out
What's your benefit
Because to tell you the truth
You never do
A thing without looking for
Some gain in return
So tell me
Why is it never meaningless
Where you're concerned
But why does it have to be for me
My friend?
We've both drifted apart
And lost years upon years
But I've always been there for you
Despite all my fears
My fears that you'll leave me
And that'll I'll be taken for granted
Ironically, fighting through them
Might've caused them to happen
You've been gone
For oh so damn long
And I'm about done forgiving you
For any wrongs
So go ahead
Get it off your chest
Reminisce
The moment we have met
Bring it out
Again and again
Because in the end
It's all so meaningless
I wish I could change the facts
But just to state them
You never cared for a minute
Nor an hour did you
We've been "friends" for so many years
But never when I needed you
Stay by me if you wish
I won't stop you from that
But do know I don't love you anymore
Nothing'll take that back