Write them away

 All the emotions I ever get
I write them away
All the things that I regret
I write them away
Used to be fight or fight
Now it's flight or flight
And I am just really tired
Of running away
Or having things never go
My way
So I write things away
If nothing else it helps me feel better
And it helps make me less bitter
About the past and the future
Both of which haunt me forever
A lot of things I wish had happened
Later than sooner
Some deaths and some accidents
Some mistakes that I've made
The smiles that keep masking it
And having to write it away
Finding my path in this life
Feels impossible in a way
Living in the beehive that is my mind
Makes it really hard to stay
Stay put, or stay sane
Makes it hard to not write things off
So instead
I write them away
Writing and writing away
Until my hands ache
So I write that pain, too, away
Remain daily awake in bed
Trying to sleep and fail
So I get up right away
And write them away
Try my best to hide the fact
That I'm depressed
And just like the rest of the world
I keep my mind repressed
With the only outlet being
Writing things away
Mistakes I've made for which I pay
Decisions I took to my own dismay
Things that I put right on display
Things that I thought were games
And did play
I write them all away

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