Dear old me

 I'm sorry dear old me
For treating you the way that I did
I am sorry truly
For the steps that I took
You were hurt by my actions
I was hurt by your feelings
So I buried them so far
Up the back of my mind
You are just a simple soul wishing to live
I was a cursed being then
The whole world around us did collapse
Can't you see? I had a reason
Set us free like a homing pigeon
Fighting one another
Choosing our own fates
Building for tomorrow
A foundation full of mistakes
And oh my dearest me
I never knew how little you breathed
How stressed and anxious you were
You took it out on our body
How depressed and angry I saw you there
I knew not what was best to do
I know I've never treated you fair
But I'm sorry, that's who I am
That's what I do
In the darkness of the new moon
You and I look together far, far up
The stars look back at us
They greet us and flicker
And you know, one day
We will flicker next to them too
For the stars, to be honest
Are nothing but the souls
Of those who died good
And I hope we die that way as well
Pass quietly and silently
Neither of us being ill
So I promise you, my dearest me
I'll find us a cure for what ails us
I will rip our lungs out clean
If it helps us breathe
So let us build together a new trust
I'm by your side and I'll hold you
I'll hold your hand through and through
Trust in me and believe
That together we will be free
Lock your heart with my mind
Let our soul walk us ahead and decide
She knows best, better than all
Even if she completely refuses to talk
She wrote this for you in her own words
You're my whole being, literally
And I wish you weren't as wounded as you are
And I apologize to you my dear
For leaving us full of scars

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