Forgive me

 Forgive me, my loved ones
For my destiny was written long ago
Forgive me, as I have done once
For my destiny is to forever be alone
Hearts and minds connect together
Bid me farewell so I'd be on my own
And so I asked the man in the mirror
"How did we become this way?"
He responds with a smile full of terror
"We refused to run away."
He laughs and laughs and all the while
He knows exactly what we have become
He stares at me, dead in the eyes
And in that moment I am stunned
For we have nobody but one another
And forever we will be together till death do us part
So forgive me if I have forsaken thee, my dears
Forgive me, I have forsaken even me
I don't wish to receive assistance
I am in complete control
Or so I tell myself when I put distance
Between myself and you all
I smile sometimes, but mostly in pain
Exasperated by motions here
Fully filled with it in my past, I'm stained
With that thing that people call "fear".
I take no steps in fear of change
I am terrified of taking risks
The results don't matter if I won't move
I am the same as my desk
We're solid beings, hard to push
But when need be, I make way
Hiding in plain sight, like a thorny bush
Staying in place, cause I am afraid
Afraid to move on
Afraid to let go
Afraid to become someone
That I do not know
And in that process, ironically
My reflection turned out to be
A complete stranger to me
So forgive me if I am lost
And forgive me if I don't wish to find the way
Forgive my grief and sadness when they overtake me
And forgive me for being so lost in my ways