The Starry Skies

   Taking a walk down the alleyway Run Hearing out what my mind has to say Run Listening to the birds sing and play Run Watching the children pass my way Run I am a walking loner A husk of a once lively man Run My mind demands that I Run Walk away from it all Run Lose whatever is left of my control Run Run Run Run Taking a seat on a bench somewhere In a park with no one there Putting on my headphones The music it plays Tossing around the stick&stones My heart begging me to stay Remembering my past and my broken bones Trying to reason with my brain Run It says Run Run Run Run My dear boy, run This is not your place Not where you should stay Getting up and smiling to myself As I gaze upon the star-filled sky Remembering the reasons I stayed When my mind spoke its mind for the first time Watching the birds that once chirped Sleeping peacefully in their nests Feeling every single pump My heart makes inside my chest And I smile Not in hope nor in despair I smile Because I might...

He stands alone The last shepherd known Standing on that hillside Gazing upon A long lost soul Marching forward Heading on and on Clear as day to him That soul is lost So he picks up his stick And takes a walk Marching over the hillside Tapping on the old stones Until he catches up With that one long lost soul He cries out "Wait! Hold on! I can take you somewhere Far more peaceful And calm" The soul turns to face him What an amalgamation he thought For this soul's complicated Even for a lost soul it is odd "Where do you come from?" Asked the soul "I come from the top of those hills there" "And why are you here?" "It is my duty to guide you It is the burden I share" "I see." Exclaimed the soul Inspecting it's own hands "I'm lost, aren't I?" "I see you understand." The soul then sighed And shed a small tear Before taking the hand Of the last shepherd there They walked and walked for long Over ...

I spent years Trekking but seldom Have I felt anything change I walked through Forgotten anguish Ignoring my rising pain I flew up into the sky My fears they died alone I tried hard, I did try To survive on my own Deal with my rising fears Searching for Long lost plains of hope My trauma it plays with me Hide and seek through the doors Searching for a true release As I trek further and further What a wanderer I have become Guiding my inner war to vanquish My inner demons, they will be gone My soul has felt them The souls that surround it The little song of revival Oh my dear it has begun At least to me it did as well The ghosts of my past still are here Playing with me hide and seek Playing with me to revive my fears Yet they console me when I'm alone Which is almost all the time Grey is the colour that paints My life For nothing is clear cut Nothing's ever black and white Oh please my dear friends Take a step back tonight For the show has just started And my war's coming t...

As the clouds circle above me I wonder when the skies would rain As the shades start to engulf me I wonder if I had missed my train For the skies are now full of water Ripe, and ready to bloom Explode into a storm of violence Which somehow sounds like music too Let them play their thunderous orchestras Let the skies clap their hands for the performance For the actors in this weather are crying And none of us have any clue As to why the sky cries As to why people die As to why they promise not to leave Lie to us, and we would believe As to why we give second chances As to why we go so deep As to why our souls are tainted By decisions of their pasts As to why out future's hazy Can't tell if it's a field of grass Or a long, ominous train track As to why our fields get watered Even when we don't ask As to why the skies come along With clouds and rain As to why we find beauty Buried within the pain The feelings we get, get repetitive Making us feel that we're insane As t...

Hope I make it out Of this prison And move on with my life See my vision true Take a step forward towards Something that benefits me and you To tell you the truth I am lost alone In a prison Sitting in the middle Of a void-filled ocean Contemplating the reasons why I fight my emotions My anger overtakes My soul takes a side As I repress my anger Feed the enraged demons inside At night I try To cry my demons away But they do not seem to be swayed Persuade them to leave I always fail Inside this prison I am stuck in my ways Cannot leave Even though I have the key Oh I have the key But I refuse to leave my cell It's a bit confusing It's a bit confounding When my close ones come to visit They find themselves dumbfounded For I don't tell the truth I don't lie either, I just tell them to leave Let me be Inside my prison I feel safe in here Even if it's torturing to me I feel safe in here Inside my little prison For I might be in jail But it's repetitive, normal I migh...

My dearest lost one The path will be revealed Don't fret and don't cry For I'll forever be here We'll be lost together from year to year And we'll have some fun My dearest lost one My child and my love My only lost one You are just me For I have always believed That we hated eachother Though we're from the same mother You walk a path that hurts your soul It hurts mine too, to watch And in the darkest hours my powers they divulge Themselves to you And although we fought one another for too long I really do miss you I look into a mirror and all I see My other half there, just you and me We'd complete eachother just if we're set free Miserable alone, fighting and forlorn Salvation is truly our only hope I rue the day we became separate I await the day when we are conjoined For you are myself And I am you We might hate eachother But we'll break through For we are one We are the same In almost everything It is such a shame That I have to wait And you have...

  Survivor's guilt is an issue I rarely see addressed For a person could live their lives In pain, depressed Looking for a reason why Why they're here and their loved ones are not Why they survived Why they're stuck in this one singular spot Why they're alive They wish to understand it all Believing that they don't deserve to live Becoming nothing but fragments Of a once beautiful soul Always asking "What if?". Treasuring their thoughts within themselves Locking them up inside their chests Building walls and mazes outside Filling the room with traps Preventing people from reaching inside In the dark they take constant stabs Hoping to find a good place to hide They try and wash their guilt away But they never succeed Their guilt lives on and on Stuck to their souls, it eats Hiding behind their masks They smile when they wish they weren't there It's too much to ask But at the end of the day they don't care They hoped for better lives But that was...

At times I feel sentimental In need of her touch I feel so broken inside In need of her hug I search outside my window Maybe I'll find her ghost Then I turn to wonder into The thought of what I have become She stopped visiting my dreams a couple years ago Maybe it's a sign Maybe she wants me to stop seeking her And start making my life right But I seek her ghost nonetheless Hoping to find some comfort Some guidance in this mess That I call my life I stare at her picture on the wall Her smile stares back at me I miss her, oh God, I do It's just how I feel Oh, mother, where have you gone? Why did you have to go away? My dearest without you, I'm none I have no place where I can stay You went away and took my home with you You went away and left with my soul You went away and left behind my siblings Lying to myself about my place They take comfort in my existence Hoping I'd see the light But without you around, mum I only see the stars of the night Hoping you're sta...